I’ve been very down on myself about the race tomorrow. I haven’t run more than 9 miles in 2 years, yet tomorrow I plan to run 13.1.
I haven’t trained enough. I’m not ready. Why did I sign up for this race anyway?
All of these thoughts have been racing through my mind, and it’s been bringing me down.
Then, something amazing happened.
My friend and neighbor, Ashley, hosted a yoga class for some friends this morning. She did a “hip opening” class, and explained that the hip chakra is where we store our emotions. She warned us that this class may release some emotion.
As we moved through our first poses, she told us to pick something that had been holding us back, and let. it. go.
I thought about my negativity towards this race. I thought about all the times I told myself, “You’ll never run this in under 2 hours.” — and I decided to let it go.
As we stretched our hips, balanced and sweated through some pretty intense poses, I told myself that it was a privilege to have my strength and I thought about all the people who couldn’t do what I’m doing tomorrow.
As we lay in our final relaxation pose, Let It Be played while Ashley read us a passage from a book called “The Little Book of Letting Go” by Hugh Prather.
Underwear on the floor can break up a marriage. But the eyes of a puppy light up when they see boxers or briefs. To them, dirty socks are not a reason for fights, but a reason for play. Obviously, most little animals are hooked on something quite divine. Something within them releases enormous freedom. I suggest that something is simplicity and purity, and that we can experience the possibilities of this natural state as well.
As she read that, tears popped out from behind my closed eyes. I can blame it on the opening of my hip chakra, but really I was feeling the release of my negative attitude.
So now I’m approaching tomorrow with a new attitude: With that of a puppy. How exciting to get to do something as awesome as lining up outside of my Alma Mater, and running 13.1 miles with a thousand other people. How amazing that we will run on a balmy November morning. How lovely that I get to see friends and acquaintances lining the streets of my hometown.
Tomorrow, I am a puppy.