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I’m Frustrated

21 Feb

I got a call early yesterday morning that there was an opening in the 6:30 PM Crossfit class, and I jumped at the chance to attend. You see, my gym has Crossfit classes, but isn’t an actual Crossfit Box. For that reason, the space for each class is limited to 10 people, so you have to call early in the morning three days before the class you want to sign up. It’s so popular that many times I haven’t actually been able to get a spot in my desired class. I’ve heard some grumbling about this, but to be honest I think it’s something we’re just going to have to deal with. I’m just happy to be able to do these types of workouts and it’s included in the cost of my gym membership (which is about a third of what our local Crossfit box charges monthly!).

So, I got to Crossfit and looked at the WOD, and I immediately knew I was going to struggle:

WOD

 

Double unders (DU’s) are my nemesis. The thing is, I can’t do them. I’ve tried, again and again. I hate to say I can’t do something, but in this case, it’s a given. Maybe someday in the future, I will be able to, but at this point in my life, I have never once been able to get the jump rope under my feet twice. Jodi, our trainer last night, told us that if we couldn’t do them, we had to triple all the reps for the whole WOD, which was also not happening in the 35 minutes we had left to finish up. I was immediately frustrated.

I think maybe the problem I have is that the jump rope is too long for me. I’ve been instructed how to do DU’s a million times. I know it’s all in the wrist, but no matter how high I jump or how fast I flick my wrists, the rope smacks me in the ankles, missing going under my feet by a split second. I finished the WOD, but only by counting “double unders” that were actually the rope smacking me in the ankles. Sigh. I didn’t even ask for my time, I just put on my coat and left. Hopefully tomorrow evening’s class goes a little better.

The other frustration I have is that I’m not getting my mileage in this month. It’s February 21st, and I’ve only ran 29 miles this month. I could probably get in 50 miles if I would push myself, but after this morning’s run:

run

…I was feeling that good old IT band pain again — why is it coming back? I guess that leads to my final frustration: I haven’t done any yoga…well, probably all month!

So, in order to alleviate my frustrations, I will:

  • Stop worrying about getting those miles in. I will run when it’s convenient, or I want to, but I won’t stress that I’m not logging miles. Like I’ve said a million times before, longer days and warmer temperatures are coming up, which will lead to a natural increase in mileage. 
  • Practice Double Unders at home. This means getting a jump rope that is an appropriate length for me. I’ve also heard getting the weighted handles helps. Any tips or tricks for practicing double unders? I don’t want to automatically give up mentally every time I see them on that white board, which is where we are headed at this point.
  • Finally, I will commit to practicing yoga at least once a week. I’ve not been great at doing yoga at home lately, I’ll put the DVD in and stop it after a few minutes because I’m distracted by other things I should be doing. No more. I’ll get to a class or I’ll commit to that DVD.

Question of the Day:
Any recent frustrations you’d like to vent about? 

 

 

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It’s Almost That Time

19 Feb

I’m still not in the best of moods. I went to the dentist again today, and it appears my dental woes are still not over. Please learn from me, don’t put off going to the dentist! I plan on making regular 6 month appointments once I’m through all of this. Add to that, just feeling blah still like I discussed yesterday, and I’m just not feeling great.  I really wish I would perk up soon! Any ideas?

However, yesterday I did something that made me a little happier:

photo (7)

 

I got to run outside! Yes, a glorious 3.03 miles (at a 10:32 pace, which is faster than any recent treadmill run — I told you I was faster outside!), and it was a lovely evening for it, as you can see. I just had to stop and take that photo — as I ran West toward the setting sun, the sky just kept getting prettier and prettier. It really felt great to run outside! It was in the mid-50’s, so it was perfect running weather. We’re back to the 30’s today (stupid fickle weather), so it’s back to the treadmill tonight. But, I’ve got a taste of Spring and I’m ready for it! It’s almost that time!

Question of the day:
What’s your favorite Spring activity? 

Friday Ramblings

15 Feb

HAPPY Friday!

Man, am I glad to see this weekend. This week has been a bit blah, so I’m just so happy to have a couple days to relax coming up!

How was your Valentine’s Day? Mine was spent much like this:

lazy

…except add in a couple more cats. Zach and I watched Perks of Being a Wallflower last night. Have you seen it? I read the book a long, long time ago — I believe I picked it up in a secondhand bookstore in Pittsburgh after high school, and it’s been one of my favorite books of all time to this day. One thing I love about it is that it is very Pittsburgh-related. I was born and raised just outside of Pittsburgh, so I love reading books about my hometown. It’s just a great book, in general, and I urge you to pick it up if you haven’t read it.

perksofbeingawallflowermovie

 

I wasn’t sure what to expect from the movie, but it was really great! I knew that Stephen Chbosky wrote the film (he’s also the author of the book), so I expected it to be pretty good, but I have to say that it was even better than I expected. Like I said above, one of my favorite things about the book was all the Pittsburgh imagery, which they really brought to life in the movie. One thing they talk about in the book is travelling through the Fort Pitt tunnels into the city. If you’ve ever done this (especially at night), it’s the most amazing sight. Now, I haven’t been to a lot of cities, but I think this is one of the most grand entrances into a city ever. If you haven’t seen it, this video might help you get an idea of what I’m talking about:

Click the picture to go to the video, and fast forward to about 0:58.

Click the picture to go to the video, and fast forward to about 0:58.

In the movie, they definitely give you a great feeling of what it’s like to do this when you’re young! I had the advantage when reading the book to really know what they were talking about, the feeling you get when you leave the tunnel, so if you read the book and you don’t, the movie will give you an idea! But really, you should do this one day because it is a must see. It’s better at night!

And now, for something completely different.

Sometimes, if I feel like sleeping in or I’m running late, I like to get breakfast to go from somewhere nearby at work. Usually, that means Starbucks. The staff is friendly, the food is good (and not terrible for you), and they have good coffee…right?

Well, I’ll tell you lately I’ve not been pleased with their regular brewed coffee. The last two times I’ve had it, it has been downright gross. I’m not sure what they are doing to it, but it definitely isn’t what it used to be. This leaves me with a dilemma, because the other option is the bagel shop, which, while they do have decent coffee (Green Mountain I think?), the staff who works there is just…annoying. There is one guy who is in there in the mornings who, while I think maybe he’s just trying to be friendly, he’s just a little too friendly, and it makes me uncomfortable… do you know what I mean? Plus, there aren’t as many healthy options there.

They never spell my name right.

They never spell my name right.

Anywho, today I found the solution to my problem! Instead of getting the regular drip coffee, I went with a grande Cafe Americano, which was only $0.10 more than the regular drip coffee, and tasted much better! Success!

In other news, my workout plans today are another round of Crossfit this evening, which should be interesting since I’m having trouble walking from yesterday’s beast of a WOD! 

Question of the Day:
What’s the very best thing about your hometown? 

 

 

Dreary Day

8 Feb

Happy Friday!

Honestly, I didn’t post a blog yesterday because I was feeling a little….blah. I’m still feeling pretty blah, but I have a 5-day-a-week blog goal to stick with! I will try not to impart my bad mood on you.

In fact, I would share why I was in such a bad mood, but I myself can’t put my finger on it. The past few nights I’ve had a lot of trouble falling asleep because I’m in an anxious panic over…pretty much everything. Do you ever just get that feeling that you aren’t getting enough done? Anywho, sleeping poorly leads to not wanting to get out of bed in the morning, and dreary, grey days lead to bad attitudes, and well, here we are!

I’m happy to say that my oral surgery went well. I think I’m healing pretty well, but I had some trouble eating for the first couple of days. I’m eating more solid foods now and I couldn’t be happier about that — I do not do well with being hungry! I even managed to go for a run last night after work:

treadmill

 

As you can probably tell from the photo, I did the Deck of Cards Treadmill Workout again, and it was just as fun as last time. I really like how it’s a completely different workout each time. The weather here was perfect, but once I got done with work and changed into my workout gear, it was still too dark for an outdoor run. Luckily, I think we might just get some of that decent weather back this weekend:
weekend weather

To pump up my bummer of a mood a bit, I’ll look forward to the fact that Zach and I are going to celebrate Valentine’s Day this evening (I’ll be at a concert with some friends next weekend), with a date night I’ve been wanting to do for quite some time: Dinner at home and dessert out! I’m planning on cooking a simple meal of steak, baked potatoes and salad and then we’ll head out to Huntington Prime to have dessert. I’ve heard a lot of great things about the pastry chef at Huntington Prime, so we’re going to save some money by cooking our dinner at home first and then go out for a delicious dessert and drinks.

The other thing I’m really looking forward to is returning to Crossfit on Saturday. I reserved a spot in the 10:00 AM class tomorrow morning, and I’m looking forward to getting back into it.

Question of the Day:
What are you most looking forward to this weekend? 

Angie, Can’t You See? I’m in Misery!

31 Jan

(Today’s title should be read to the tune of Sandy from Grease.)

Well, first of all, yesterday’s post contained a bit of an error.

woo!

Yes, I realize September 28th is between the 21st and the 5th, not the 14th and 21st. That’s what I get for trying to quickly post a blog 10 minutes before I leave work 🙂

This morning, I woke up a little late for the 6:15 AM Crossfit WOD . I knew it would be tough, because I’m still sore from Tuesday’s workout! I must be a glutton for punishment, because I signed up for Friday evening’s workout as well, because I know a friend will be there, and I like working out with friends.

Today’s workout was a Benchmark WOD: Angie.

100 push ups
100 sit ups
100 pull ups
100 goblet squats

…hm. When I saw that this morning, I was feeling pretty intimidated. Especially since my chest was still so sore from Tuesday’s 50 push ups. Our coach said that we could do it however we wanted  — not necessarily 100 of one skill at a time. While we stretched, I tried to form a plan of attack. My original goal was to try to tackle all 100 of each skill, just breaking them up into sets of 10.

I did fine with the push ups and sit ups, but then I knew I wouldn’t be able to do 100 pull ups or goblet squats consecutively. First of all, there wasn’t enough space on the pull up bar for me to struggle through 100 pull ups without blocking other Crossfitters, and after about 10 pull ups my arms were toast and needed a break. So, I decided to try to do 20 of each alternating. That worked pretty well, and I ended up with a pretty good time: 27:35. I’m excited to do this workout again in the future, because I’d like to be able to either improve my time, increase the KB weight or take off some modifications (for example, I used a band on the pull ups).

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I really wanted to show you my breakfast this morning, but I left my phone at home, so no picture. I made Tina’s microwave english muffin! It was….interesting. I did like it, it was just a little on the chewy side. I think I’ll microwave it a little less next time. I made it into a breakfast sandwich with an egg, turkey bacon, cheese and a smear of preserves. Yum. After re-reading Tina’s original post about it, I realize I should have toasted it after I sliced it. Tomorrow!

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Ok, let’s talk books. I think I’ve finished 3 books since last time I reviewed one. However, I just finished this one last night and I have to talk about it:

If you’re interested in Healthy Living at all, you must read this book! I haven’t seen the movie yet, but I do know it’s been nominated for a lot of awards, and has two of my favorite actors in the lead roles — that combined with the fact that, as I read this book I could just picture it as a movie makes me know I’ll love it!

Silver Linings Playbook follows Pat, a mentally unstable 34-year-old man, who was recently released from a mental institution into the care of his parents. Without giving away any spoilers, all you know is that Pat has been estranged from his wife for an undisclosed amount of time and he is determined to win her back after “apart time” is over.

This book was right up my alley. Part of Pat’s mental disorder is that he is obsessed with working out. He lifts weights most of the day and then goes for at least a ten-mile run. He wants to be in good shape when he reunites with his wife, so he imposes strict guidelines on his fitness. I think a lot of people can relate with that aspect of Pat’s psyche. For me, especially, when my life seems a little out of control, I turn to fitness in a big way. I know if I can’t control other aspects in my life, then I can control my fitness. I don’t think I’ve gotten to a point when I’ve been unhealthy about it, but I think it’s very easy to see how someone can get to that point.

I’ve read a few reviews on Goodreads about this book, and a lot of people describe it as “fun” and “lighthearted” — but for me, it’s really hard to put it into that category. What is fun and lighthearted about mental illness? However, I do see their point. The characters are really interesting and likeable (well, most of them), and it does feel like a fun and lighthearted read. Some of Pat’s hang-ups are a little comical.

I’m very excited to see this movie, and I highly recommend the book!

And, finally, please click here to see the best video of all time, and what I’m going to watch next time I’m struggling on the treadmill:

puppy

Question of the Day:
Tell me about the hardest workout you’ve done recently. 

Mondays Get a Bad Rap

28 Jan

I’ll be the first to admit that I don’t always give Monday the benefit of the doubt.

Waking up to that alarm after two days of waking up naturally is a bummer. Getting out of my warm bed and into the shower, rushing around to get breakfast ready for everyone, pets included, and going out into the cold to head to work for 8 hours after 2 days of doing whatever I want — not fun.

And, also, Mondays are always especially hard at work. Work has built up over the weekend (my workplace is open 7 days a week, so even when I’m not here over the weekend, something ends up on my desk), and there is always a lot of stuff to catch up on.

Here are the 3 things that are making me ready to tackle this Monday, and subsequent week, with a smile:

1. A yummy breakfast: 

breakfast

This weekend wasn’t the best for healthy eating. I tried to stay on track, but I had a few extra beers and a few less-than-perfect meals. Oh well. Loading up on fruit and a bit of whole grains should make up for it. I packed a banana, some yogurt, the bagel and the apple, but I found some leftover fruit in the fridge at work from a program this weekend. Melon isn’t exactly in season, but it was still yummy.

2. A great weekend with friends! 

Zach and I had a great weekend. We got to hang out with friends a lot, and he and I had some great quality time together. It was fabulous 🙂

Zach enjoying a lazy double cat Saturday morning.

Zach enjoying a lazy double cat Saturday morning.

3. A good weekend of fitness! 

Although I was feeling a bit under the weather this weekend, I did manage to get some fitness in. I went to my very first Crossfit class ever! Here was the WOD:

8 minute AMRAP (as many reps as possible):
15 Wall Balls
15 Kettlebell Swings
15 ring pull ups

…8 minutes? That’s it!? Uh, yeah, that was the most intense 8 minutes of my life. The class started out with some intense foam rolling and stretching that my legs definitely needed, then we moved on to learning form with deadlifts. Finally, it was time to do the WOD. My AMRAP? 2. Yep, only 2. But that’s 30 Wall Balls, 30 Kettlebell Swings, and 30 ring pull ups (modified) in 8 minutes. I’m pretty proud of myself, and boy was I sore the next day!

Yesterday, I spent most of the day helping Courtney set up for the Bridal Expo, and attending it myself (I’ll talk more about that in my Wedding Wednesday post this week). Since I didn’t want to spend 7 hours at the Expo, after I helped with set-up, paid my admission and scoped out the vendors, I went home for lunch. When it was about an hour before ending time, I put on my running clothes and went for a run around town, ending at the Civic Center. I helped Courtney and her partner Mark break down their table and then finished my run, ending up at a Yoga for Runner’s class at Studio 8 yoga. I’m not going to go much into that class, because while it was a great class, they were having their one year anniversary and the class was much too packed for my liking. I got there early so I ended up with my mat smack dab in the middle of the studio, packed with other yogis like sardines around me, with no escape route. That really got my anxiety level up, so I didn’t quite enjoy my practice like I usually do.

However, my run put at 14 miles for the week, and 49.62 for the month of January so far. That means I only have to run .4 miles before February 1st to reach my 50 mile goal for the month! Hooray!

This past week's mileage.

This past week’s mileage.

Also, I’m looking forward to my next Crossfit class, tomorrow at 6:15 AM!

There you go! The top 3 reasons I’m not going to let this Monday bring me down!

Question of the Day:
How are you going to avoid letting Monday bring you down? 

 

 

The Facts of Running

18 Jan

You take the good, you take the bad…

Cannot get that song out of my head this morning.

tootie

I may be showing my age here, but I loved that show. Remember Tootie, back in the day, was always wearing roller skates? I was the same way when I was a kid. I loved my roller skates.

I really don’t know what The Facts of Life has to do with anything, but I started singing that song this morning after I got back from the gym. This week has been really tough, motivation wise. It’s been difficult to talk myself into working out. Last week, I was in the zone, logging miles, hitting the weights, and I was just getting it done. This week, it’s been a struggle for me to get out of the house.

This morning, it was cold! It still is, in fact. It’s below freezing, which doesn’t happen too often around here, and though I got out of bed, I put on my warm robe and huddled under a cover on the couch for a good 20 minutes talking myself in and out of going to the gym. Sometimes I can talk myself out of it by swearing I will go after work, but that doesn’t always happen. Fridays, especially, are unpredictable, so I forced myself to put on my workout clothes and get to it. I grumbled on my way to the gym (it was so cold!) Then I dreaded stepping on that treadmill.

30 rock

I started walking on the treadmill and I could not get into the groove. The above is what I had to do to keep it going. I didn’t want to see the time pass, so I covered the display with my sweatshirt and put 30 Rock on my Kindle. I started jogging several times, but kept coming back to walking. It was rough, you guys. Finally, I decided to just do it. I stopped the treadmill for a bathroom break and I decided to just get some running in for at least a mile:

run

I’m sick of seeing treadmill displays too. Come on, Spring!

Not the fastest pace, but I was feeling it. I was sweaty and out of breath. It was definitely my hardest “run” of 2013.

Why are some runs great and some runs terrible? I know that it is technically all related to your sleep, hydration, fuel, etc., but sometimes you cannot predict it. I’m certain today’s struggle can be attributed to my mental state — I was not in the mood to run, and my body was just following suit.

But you know, running is like life. You take the good, you take the bad, you take them both and there you have The Facts of Running!

Question of the Day:
When was your last really great run?